una fine è un nuovo inizio

today went as if any other day…went to cosmo school and had an alright morning…go home and get a call from my boyfriend who promised to call last night but failed again…(over it) and i talk to him about it…

the conversation concluded with we shouldn’t be together anymore…

im speechless.

emotionless.

breathless.

i cant take that as an answer because you still don’t understand what u mean to me…hell i don’t understand what u mean to me…all i do know is…there isn’t a life without u..its emptiness…incomplete…not worth living…do u feel me?

like your my sky my dirt my everything like your the sun rays to a plant…water for a fish…because without u im like a fish with no waaaaatttteeeerrrr…

i just wish i could fathom my love for u my happiness i feel when i see your eyes when i kiss u hug u smell u everything about u brings a smile to my face just the thought of a life forever for all eternity brings such joy to my days baby…please love me just maybe…stay here a while…take a load of your feet…because with out you babe…im dead meat…

so i know when i post this…your gunna give me a bash…when life gives u lemons…don’t throw them in the trash.

failstun:

sassy sass

As always -_-

are youfucking serious….60 spots gone in a week and a day…i have been trying to get in this class for a yeart now and its that fucking hard okay people.   the people who take cosmetology for an easy way out of gpoing to school and getting a side job…fuck u i need this mroe than anything becaus eit is gunna be my career it isnt some job because i got knocked up and have nothing else i can do and im not getting priority registration because im some welfare case who needs a job…dude fucking step out of the way people who actually wanna be there and arent gunna drop out the first week because they realize that it takes actual intelligence to do this…and u have to actually do homework…im so pissed and discouraged because i want this so badly asnd the fucking community college system is a fucking shit hole.  thatnk youn california for being a piece of shit…because i need to get my life started and your school system…is keeping me form that…

that moment when your mind is runnign a mile a min and your shaking and crying and want the world to just stop and u wanna freeze time :(

Can’t live knowing I have failed

Miss my blonde so much:( (Taken with Instagram)

saltydreams:

d-y-n-a-m-i-c:

weedisallweneed69:

eyes-of-golden-lies:

Hey guys, this is my little brother, Mikey. He’s 9 years old. The other day my best friend and I were watching “Americas next top model” and he came in the room and got really upset at how all of the girls seemed to be breaking down over the things they couldn’t control. One girl, who was very thin, was complaining that she was a “fat bitch” and how she needed to lose at least 10lbs. Another girl, quite beautiful, was complaining that her nose was too big for her face. Then Mikey started lecturing Chloe and me on how stupid they were. He was questioning how such beautiful girls could do this to themselves. We tried to explain to him how its not just them, everyone does it and it really upset him. So he wrote himself a little script and asked me for my laptop. He sat there for about two hours trying to make everything perfect so he could try to tell all the girls and guys out there who feel bad about themselves that they’re all beautiful and society is stupid. Please reblog this and share it with your friends for Mikey and his urge to make everyone aware of their beauty.

omfg this is perfect i cant even omg im sitting here like with my hand over my mouth smiling OMFG I LOVE THIS KID

omg he is the cutest thing ever

(via mrsaenz)

Never wanted to feel this hurt again but alas I do and it sucks I’m alone and always will be…I should have never gotten y hopes up one bit…because I was never worth it to u anyways

at one of the lowest points in my life…parents call me a failure and a dumbass andtell me im a piece of shit and basically tell me im on my own

boyfriend is off at college doing god only knows what and living life to the absolute fullest and i have to sit and watch while my life is reduced to shit. 

struggling to get into beauty school so i can make osmething of myself and do something i love to do.

getting shitty hours at work barely enough to pay my bills and save for school

the thoughts have crossed my mind and have mad me feel scared and worthless

should i do it and just make that sudden change to make everyone else happy

to make my family of four a three

to forever be with my boyfriend and never have to worry about leaving his side ever

and to not have to worry about society and what they think is success and what deems worth of money.

yes/no

confused

scared

upset

worried

destroyed.

And of course…suspicion proved right